1. |
Pushing
03:10
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capo 3rd
C G F Fm
sometimes when i look in the mirror, i dont always recognize who's eyes are staring back at me
the glare's cold and the pupils are taught, from all the lessons they've learned from all the shit they've been told
it's not your fault that your body is bruised and your spirit is scarred
but it's still your body it's still your body
it's still your body it's still your body
C Em F G Fm
D7 G7 (end on C)
and iiii dooont thiiinnk iiii haaave aaaa pretty voiiice,
but I'll sing it loud anyway
despite my confliction i have the conviction to,
tell myself im proud of it
verse
every day when i look in the mirror, i try to look at myself a little bit more tenderly
i cant hide from the wounds ive sustained and they're a bit to big to cover up with a bandaid
it's not your fault conflict sometimes just happens, can't always avoid it
but it's still my body it's still my body
it's still my body it's still my body
chorus
and iii dont thiiinnk iiii looook to greeat inn iit,
but I'll own it hard anyway
even with all my scrutiny I'll make sure i still choose me,
because who else fucking would
F G C C7 end with Fm G C
it's not a game I'm planning on winning
i just know that we have to keep on living
and i know it hurts but for what it's worth
think of all the progress you've made
verse
so now when i look in the mirror, i try to hold all my past so forgivingly
my eyes are present, holding back resentment
well i cant let my growth be stunted, leaving this pain unconfronted
sit in front of my room's mirror, let me make this fucking clearer
it's still your body it's still your body
it's still your body it's still your body
it's still your body it's still your body
it's still your body it's still your body
bridge
if you cant see the end know I'll still be your friend,
and i think we'll all be okay in the end
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2. |
Interlude I
00:43
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3. |
I Camp Grow, but Try
03:51
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C E7 F G7
up on that mountain i can see it all, over the treetops
and with my feet in the mud i can hear it all, over the water
I am still sorry for who I have been
i am learning and growing and making amends
but that doesn't mean they have to stick around
they don't owe you shit, i know it hurts, take it as a lesson
C [E7(4th fret)] F G D7
and when i fall off that cliff into the water down below I'll remember to kick my feet it's how i go
i promise you i will be better next time
i promise you i will be so much better next time, if there's a next time
walking down that trail, i can feel it all beneath me
the rocks are bumpy but the moss is soft and the ground is ever changing
well i can smell it all in the shifting wind, the fires down the road, the bloom of flowers are in tow, where there is death life will grow
to set my own ego ablaze after a lengthy self appraise, i know it really sounds cliché you must work on it everyday, forgive your past it's not too late but don't forget who bears that weight, the one's you've hurt the one's in pain don't let this lesson die in vain
and i can see all that pain in myself, can't seem to let it go
so sit with it and listen
and when i trip over those rocks, my face will meet the ground
I'll wipe the dirt from eyes and not make a sound
i will pick myself back up yet again
i will pick myself back up yet again everytime and i will not stop trying
i made a promise to be better, and I'll get better
i will sink my roots way deep in the ground and i will grow and i will bloom my petals
I'll be better, I'll get better, I'll be better
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4. |
A Place to Call Our Home
03:11
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G5 Cmaj7no3 Dsus4 A7no3 Am7no5
Em G7 D#maj7 Cm7
G Em D6 Cmaj7
If i ran away into the mountains
Would you, Would you join me or bring me back
Im feeling just a little bit neglected
Followed by a panic attack
who's there, i can feel a heartbeat
it's so soft yet strong and it does belong to this place that much i can say
Out there, out there we could have a nice little shack
Surrounded by little bugs and lots of trees
Plus furry friends that i cant wait to see
i feel the moss so soft under my feet, stained green so clean this forest society
who's there i can see a shadow
and i can't make out what their intentions are but regardless i extend my hand
you don't have to be so lonely in this world i know it beats us down but we can all start fresh anew and secluded, invite our friends and all those around
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5. |
Interlude II
00:54
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6. |
Are You A Stray?
02:41
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[Verse]: G C Cmaj7, G C Cmaj7
[Oh no]: B
[Chorus]: Em Dsus4 Csus2 Am7no5 Cmaj7no3
[Bridge]: G G7 Em C7
Well I've been taking cat naps all day
It's my plan to put my life on delay
You see my brain it's in dismay
Trying my best to navigate this cliché
Ohhhhh noooooo
Feeling myself sink into a rut i cant let this happen to me again
Forcing myself to be sociable and im really thankful for every new friend
[Bridge]
I used to sit around smoking catnip all day
It wasn't healthy for me to cope in that way
Look at me now i use a different ashtray
It's all behind now in time passé
Ohhhhh noooooo
Everytime i get stressed i reach for a crutch
Sway back and forth between mental states
Fool myself think im well when it's just mania
If i make one mistake the world comes crashing down
[Bridge]
Glimmering eyes from the alleyway
If you leave a can i might come out and stay
Ears perked up pupils wide as the sky
On high alert everytime someone passes by
If you come close i might run away
Or at the very least i might scare you anyway
I might be dirty if i forget to groom
If you give me some time you can watch my heart bloom
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7. |
Chase
01:35
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G G7 Em C7 Cm
I know everyone's got some kind of addiction
I just wish mine wasnt escaping
You know like turning around and running away from you problems without ever looking back as if they'd go away without catching up to you even stronger
I look at the moon and i feel her gaze hoping i can find that feeling in others, you know
There are times when i feel so hopeless like when my heart is sunk pumping lead into my veins weighing down my whole body, i dont want to get up
Cuz maybe, we're all looking for that feeling, that keeps us alive
I know i havent felt it in way too long and im hoping i can call it here with my song
But a wish wont come true without a can-do attitude
And i can't dye my hair if i shave it off everywhere
I talk to my cat but she aint good with chitchat
Some times i feel a little bit lonely
I know we all do sometimes
But i dont think it should persist for this long, i think maybe something is wrong
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8. |
Break Fast (demo)
04:21
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G Em Cmaj7no3
well you, and me,
we tried our hardest as 2 people could, didn't we?
well you, and me,
should never have expected this to end, easily
well you, and me,
every morning would make eggs and, coffee
B7 Em B7 G7 Cmaj7 CMadd9
well i was never one to drink coffee cuz
it often gave me really bad panic attacks
G D6 Cmaj7sus4 Am
but it always tasted sweeter when you're right there drinking it with me
and i know that moment can't last forever but, i will always try to remember
well you, and me,
tried to inspire each other to think more, creatively
well you, and me,
would get ideas and pump them up so excitedly
well you, and me,
were on and off for so long we didn't wanna give up on that energy
maybe that was our mistake, we bit off more than we could take
and now we both have a headache, it's time to break it's time to break it's time to break
maybe you didn't really want to, but you had to, for your own sake
i cannot blame you, in fact im proud of you
i just wish it could've worked out in some other way
Am9 G G(3rd string down 1F) Cmaj7no3
it's my fault
it's my fault
it's my fault
it's my fault
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